you are a broken highway

Frankie Cocozza looks like Alex Turner…

frankiesbum:

well, i think he does. the hair and the skinny legs/jeans and his aura. anyone agree?

OMG HELL NO. I like Frankie Cocozza and I love Alex but they come from different music industries and it’s a bit insulting to say that of Alex.

First of, Alex doesn’t wear skinny jeans. Secondly, yes his hair was a bit similar to that of Frankie’s but that was years ago(Have you seen his hair now girl it’s flamiinnnn). And hell no the aura is definitely not the same. Frankie’s a manwhore and cheeky and a bit lippy. Alex is more of a boyish quiet cheeky, and he’s more quiet, intellectual even. And he certainly is no manwhore. He likes his girls classy.

And frankie is mainstream. Never compare anyone mainstream with the good ol’ indie. NEVA.

Just my two cents anyway, because I adore Alex and the monkeys :)

Frankie Cocozza

Omg so I’m really upset James got out although I’d rather much him than Frankie and well I wouldn’t mind the other 2 going home but they have got pretty good voices so no chance of that.

I’ve never really been interested in James before but he’s so sincere and genuine and he was relying on this for a better life and its just really unfair. And he’s such a handsome bloke too. I hope he makes it out there, and earns big pounds and have a better life. I really do. Best of luck James.

And Amelie is out!! She’s one of my favourites, and when I first watched her performance I was actually really impressed, but apparently I wasn’t pro enough to decide if its good or not because she got kicked out. I really like her, and she’s still young so I think she’ll still be okay. Pity though.

And the fuck is 2 Shoes kicked out???? Is Tulisa deaf seriously? I understand how Gary and Kelly had no choice but to kick out James and Amelie seeing how the other contestants were also pretty good but Rythmix was horrible and everyone can vouch for that. They certainly had no star quality either, they look like a group of chavettes to be honest, they reallly do. They probably sound like it too. I really do not get this.

And for Louis’ decisions…I have no comments because I was never really interested in the over 25s.

Overall I guess I’ve always knew James and Amelie would go so even though I am really devo for them, I am also happy for the rest who got through. I’m not happy about 2 Shoes though.

England Fund

Yes you know it, I’m starting an “England fund”. 

I’m getting quite close to being a grown up so I figured there’s no time for empty daydreaming anymore, if I really want this I have to make it happen. I only have about 3 more years until I graduate from poly and I’m hoping I could get into a Uni in Perth, where its nearer and people are nicer so I can get more used to the Western world. After that off to London I am. Would much rather go to London straightaway after my graduation but I doubt thats enough. I dont think a diploma is enough.

Although a degree would take about another 4 years and everyone’s counting on me to make it big and give them money. I hate this, I hate how the reason I have to do well is to provide for them. Its not like I don’t want to, but it would be nice if I could just start slowly and enjoy first before going head first into the corporate world.

But anyway hopefully after 3 years, I’d have enough money in my fund to at least buy the ticket to England. 

I guess I’m just really love deprived, because I’ve never felt Love and everyone is going on about it and I’m like, “What is this, happen to me already” I dont want that soppy immature puppy love though. Its the real thing or nothing. 

I don’t know if I’m normal enough to fall in love. Maybe Love can’t keep up with my expectations but Love is supposed to sweep me of my feet isn’t it, expectations and all? These tirades, both mentally and written are tiring me out. I know its OK and all that bullshit but just give me one so I can shut the fuck up already

I HATE LIFE I HATE ME I AM UGLY AS FUCK AND I AM NEVER GETTING ANYWHERE NEAR ANY OF THE THINGS I AM DREAMING IN MY HEAD. NOWHERE. I AM GOING TO BECOME AN UGLY FAILURE WHO TRIES TOO HARD AT THINGS AND NEVER GETTING THERE. I NEED TO WAKE UP AND REALISE AND ACCEPT THAT I AM NOT THE PERSON IN MY HEAD AND I NEVER WILL BE. I AM A FUCKING LOSER, A FUCKING UGLY LOSER AND I WILL DIE ALONE BECAUSE I AM TOO ARROGANT AND I EXPECT TOO MUCH AND IM JUST GOING TO DIE, I WISH I WOULD DIE NOW THIS IS HORRIBLE WHY AM I GETTING UGLIER BY THE DAY I USED TO BE ALRIGHT BEFORE WHY THE FUCK DO I EVEN EXIST I HATE MYSELF UGLY PIECE OF FUCK. THIS YEAR HAVE BEEN TRULY HORRENDOUS.

MY ENGLISH IS FAILING ME BIT BY BIT. I AM GETTING FATTER AND UGLIER. MORE AND MORE PEOPLE ARE NOT LIKING ME. MY PERSONALITY IS GETTING MORE HIDEOUS BY THE SECOND.

AND THE WORSE THING IS THIS ALL DOESN’T REGISTER IN MY FUCKING BRAIN DEEP ENOUGH. WHAT THE FUCK ELSE DO YOU NEED FOR PROOF BITCH YOU’VE SEEN IT HAPPEN A COUPLE OF TIMES HOW NO ONE LIKES YOU AND HOW YOU ARE AN UGLY PIECE OF FUCK AND SO YOU SHOULDNT BE SO SNOTTY AND HIGH AND MIGHTY ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU ARE UGLY. UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY

YOU’RE A FUCKING UGLY BITCH SHEREEN AND NO ONE WILL EVER WANT YOU AND YOU ARE JUST GONNA STAY MISERABLE AND INSECURE YOUR WHOLE LIFE. FUCKING BITCH YOU SHOULD JUST DIE, FORGET ALL THAT OPTIMIST CRAP ABOUT LIVING YOUR LIFE BECAUSE BITCH WHO YOU BE KIDDING? YOU’RE NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE NOW OR IN THE FUTURE. BECAUSE YOUR DEFINITION OF “LIVING” IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU ALRIGHT JUST FACE IT AND DIE FUCKING PATHETIC 

I HATE LIFE I HATE ME I AM UGLY AS FUCK AND I AM NEVER GETTING ANYWHERE NEAR ANY OF THE THINGS I AM DREAMING IN MY HEAD. NOWHERE. I AM GOING TO BECOME AN UGLY FAILURE WHO TRIES TOO HARD AT THINGS AND NEVER GETTING THERE. I NEED TO WAKE UP AND REALISE AND ACCEPT THAT I AM NOT THE PERSON IN MY HEAD AND I NEVER WILL BE. I AM A FUCKING LOSER, A FUCKING UGLY LOSER AND I WILL DIE ALONE BECAUSE I AM TOO ARROGANT AND I EXPECT TOO MUCH AND IM JUST GOING TO DIE, I WISH I WOULD DIE NOW THIS IS HORRIBLE WHY AM I GETTING UGLIER BY THE DAY I USED TO BE ALRIGHT BEFORE WHY THE FUCK DO I EVEN EXIST I HATE MYSELF UGLY PIECE OF FUCK.

Oh its one of those nights where everything is a blurry mess and I don’t know what I am getting out of this and I just feel terribly frivolous and I’m not really sure it belongs where I stand now. I know, and I see, but I can’t muster up enough energy to explain.

I’m sorry. But until I figure out who/what I want and where I stand…..I don’t think I’m going anywhere.